As a kid, I struggled to fit in anywhere.
My parents tried integrating me into various sports and extracurricular activities, like skiing, Tae Kwan Do, piano, after school programs, gymnastics and swimming. In school, I tried drama and choir, but over time, it was clear that I didn’t fit in anywhere.
Also in my childhood years, I slowly developed a poor relationship with food. In elementary school, I went through a phase where I didn't want to eat. Around the time I hit puberty, I started eating more and more junk foods, sweets, chocolate bars, and ice cream until it became an addiction. This particular struggle developed well into my pre-teen, teen and early adult years and well into my university years.
In high school, I dove into learning new things and understanding new concepts about the world through topics like history, biology, chemistry and physics. And it was through my education in high school that I was starting to gain acceptance. It slowly started to become a part of who I was.
My favourite courses were physics and gym. I loved the concepts of energy, the human body, and health.
This passion for learning and understanding got me to study at the University of Toronto Mississauga Campus in the Life Science program, where soon after, I noticed that I started questioning so much more than just the concepts being taught in class. I started questioning my reality.
My mind was entertained with questions like, "Why am I studying this course?" "Do I really need a piece of paper with my name on it to be happy?", and, after a while, through bouncing around from one course to another, from one program to another, an aboriginal identities course fell into my lap. And as I started to uncover the truth about the aboriginal peoples of North America, took part in small spiritual ceremonies with the class, and had time to self-reflect, I started to ask myself the question about my own identity.
The more self-reflection I did, the more I separated myself from society, bit by bit. And the external pressures of university, work and home life started to take over.
In October of 2015, at the age of 19, I started to get the knowing feeling that I had to do something. I had to take action and move forward in my life. On January 1st 2017, I knew I had to do something. To take action. Six days later, I stepped out of my comfort zone for the first time ever.
It didn't go as planned.
Less than a month later, my life shattered into a million pieces as I was met with the decision to either keep holding on or to let go and move on.
I made the conscious choice to let go and move on.
Less than a week later after I made that first decision, I made another one. I made the decision to leave university behind.
Less than a month later, I travelled down to the Dominican with family and friends, and for the first time in my life, I wasn't distracted by the pressures from school and work life.
There was one morning on that trip where I woke up before anyone else, walked down to the beach, sat down on the lawn chair and just sat with myself for a good few minutes and I felt freer than I ever thought possible.
A few days later, I travelled back to Canada, walked into my childhood room and instantly noticed my mind felt like it was under attack and stress started to rise. I tried staying there for about 30 minutes to an hour until I couldn't take it anymore and walked out. That's when I knew that I needed help. So I reached out again. I looked for help from the family doctor, therapists, psychiatrists, friends, and family.
I looked for answers everywhere, but I wasn't getting the answers I was seeking.
A few months went by when I was introduced to spiritual healing.
And yet again, I started to wake up even more. I dug deeper into my soul and began to understand more of my childhood, my teen years, and even my early adult years. I began to connect the dots and things started to make sense.
Soon after that, I dove into the world of self - care and spiritual healing, and suddenly, things began to clear up. Throughout the next few months, I started to take action in even more areas of my life, including my job in finance, my relationships and my overall health.
I started growing and evolving and becoming a better version of myself than ever before. And, as a result, I was able to manoeuvre my way through many of life's challenges including, depression and anxiety, an eating disorder, addiction and stress.
I am now living my authentic truth. And it's my mission to help others to do the same.